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Hello, my dear readers! If you're on a journey of self-discovery and recovery, "The Game of Life and How to Play It" by Florence Scovel Shinn is a must-read that packs a punch with timeless wisdom and a dash of metaphysical magic. Written in the 1920s, it's like a spiritual boot camp that shows us how the thoughts and beliefs we carry can shape our lives—super useful when you're battling addiction and trying to manifest a healthier, happier you.
Florence, our spiritual drill sergeant, arms us with an arsenal of affirmations, faith, and positive thinking. She teaches that life is a game in which the spiritual laws of the universe are the rulebook. Imagine being able to tap into the power of your mind to not only stay on the wagon but also draw in abundance and joy. She emphasizes the importance of visualization and speaking things into existence, which can be a game changer when you're trying to stay clean and rebuild your life.
So, why not let Florence be your guide? Her strategies are like having cheat codes in the game of life, giving you the upper hand in overcoming obstacles and creating a life filled with victories—big and small. Whether you’re new to the sobriety game or you’ve got some serious, sober time under your belt, this book offers a fun, engaging way to strengthen your recovery muscles. Let's empower ourselves with Florence's insights and play this game of life to win—sober style!
PS. When I say visualize, I really mean use narratives and descriptions or visualize. I have Aphantasia (blind mind's eye), and many people use a lack of the ability to visualize as a get-out-of-meditation/manifestation-free card, as I did for more than fifteen years. It's not going to happen around here. No blaming your ADHD, either. We all have it, and if I can, you CAN! Trust me. You will thank me later.
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Alunir is my current obsession. I haven't been able to shift realities yet, but I use her meditations for astral projection.
She has the voice of an angel, and I don't know; I love her style. I love her swag- the way she talks, her accent, and everything she says. She puts me in a very good place, and I highly recommend you check her out.
Hey, and don't you know I found my fellow ADHDers the best of the best. Just try it, man.
I agree 100% 🙌💯🥰
I love it! This is what I practice (and teach)!
Love your site title!
Thank you for your sharing. I am worried that I lack creative ideas. It is your article that makes me full of hope. Thank you. But, I have a question, can you help me?
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Your article helped me a lot, is there any more related content? Thanks!
Your article helped me a lot, is there any more related content? Thanks!
Thank you for your sharing. I am worried that I lack creative ideas. It is your article that makes me full of hope. Thank you. But, I have a question, can you help me?
Thanks for sharing. I read many of your blog posts, cool, your blog is very good.
Hi 😆🥰, How are you Samantha?
I was just wondering what you been up to. How have you been? Sick of this winter weather? I sure am. Its been a cold winter but not the coldest. Lol.
Hahaha, this is great timing and a sweet surprise. I have been incredible!.
“Sick of this winter weather? I sure am. Its been a cold winter but not the coldest. Lol.”
Thankfully I don’t ever have to deal with snow issues and very cold weather 🤣🤣, but I hope that my “I missed you” e-hugs and kisses raises the temperature for you 😹😁💙
Hey, I hope you are doing well <3😆👋
I was so happy to find this article! All of the addiction websites seem to all be about recovery from alcohol. There aren’t many recovering drug addicts. I just barely found your site and I am so glad that I did. It’s about time one of us got out there and did something to make a difference. Your story definitely gives us hope. I’ll be around for whatever is next. It takes a lot to hold my attention and you definitely have it. You have my support woman. Good job!
Hi, I am wishing you a marvelous day my friend 💌✌️🤗💕
Can you email me the shadow box please it’s lower case L so ljohnsonx35@gmail.com
I sent your copy a few hours ago. Was there an issue with the link? I tried it and it worked fine for me. Did you have an issue?
Hi how are you my friend? 💙😆
Killa! Its been some time. Are you well?
Samantha 😍
True it’s been a while indeed haha. Yes, I am doing super well 👌😹. Thanks alot for asking, and how are you?
I sent responses a few times to some of your other recent comments and topics some months ago, but it doesn’t look like you noticed them. But I am really happy to hear from you again my friend 💙☺️💌.
Killa, I never saw them. My site was making me crazy for awhile there. I thought I was going to throw in, but it’s justy not something I am able to do. Lol. I am so sorry about that.
Hahaha, no problem my friend 😄😄. I just hope you are good otherwise and seasons greetings 🎄🎄⭐🙌😹
I’m alright. Glad xmas is over. Lol. Hope you have happy holidays, Killa.
Yes
Sorry about that last message, it sent prematurely lol.
I missed you like crazy Samantha ☺️☺️💙. Yes, I am having a lovely time my friend, thanks so much 😆🙌💌. Why are you glad Christmas is over? 😹
CHristmas costs a lot of money that I definitely don’t have and my animals have been having some behavior issues. I also spent a week with my site inaccessible and that was rough. Get anything good for xmas?
What you said about the cost is very true 😅😅. Sorry to hear about the behavioral issues concerning your animals, and that you couldn’t access our site. Your site needs a major overhaul 🤣🤣. I can’t think of any reason why your site would be so problematic since it’s more on the light side and especially since you seem to be paying for proper hosting which is just right for the level of site that you have 🤔. I think it might come down to the plugins, configuration and certain themes that might be resource heavy. I wish I could actually physically help you to fix your site totally free of charge, so that you can use it headache free LOL
Yes, I was gifted really cool things for Christmas haha. These days, the biggest highlight for me at Christmas, the more I get older, is just the sheer fun and enjoyment that I have with the fam, but one really awesome gift that I got is a 43-inch 4K HDR television 🖥️👍😂. I intend to make a blog about it, but my new 4K HDR television would come in handy when I get my computer fully set up to start playing games, editing content in photoshop and video editing 🙌😹😃. Currently I am using a very old Acer monitor that has a screen that’s kind of dull and yellow-ish screen 🤭🤣. So the 4K HDR television is just the thing I needed 🤟🤟
Happy New Year to you Samantha 🎊🎉🥳🥳2️⃣0️⃣2️⃣4️⃣.
Keep on progressing 👋👋😹😁💗
Awwww…. Thanks, Killa! Its going to be a great year. I can feel it!
You’re welcome 💕🌹. It’s lovely hearing from you again — I am glad you are feeling very optimistic about the new year my friend 🙌😹😘💗
I just wrote a whole long reply to you and two times it just closed out so I am going to have to respond in a little bit but definitely looking forward to catching up, Killa. Light & love, friend.
Wow 😅😅, it must be frustrating that after writing your lovely reply, the thing closed on you not once but twice lol. Thanks for your update, and I am looking forward to catching up with you too 🤟😆. Light & Love 🥰
By the way, you can all me Troy 💙💙💙
Thats my luck lately. I been having a streak of not the best luck. My mindset has altered and I’m trying to get it back.
🤗🤗 Don’t worry, things don’t go our way all the time, but sometimes things do, especially when we try, so keep trying Samantha 💯🤞😇🙏
WOW, top recommendations Samantha 👌👌😆. You put so much work and research into this and I know there are alot of people who may be trying to recover from drug addiction that would appreciate and could really use stuff like this 💙💙🙏😌.
I really did and thank you from the bottom of my heart for recognizing this. I spent over a month on this post. The links are all messed up and I just realized it so I will probably be working on it for another three weeks. Lol. Thanks for your comment, Killa!
Awwwwwww, you are welcome Samantha 💕💕😆. I am happy that my words connected with your heart. Form the first day I saw your blog, it didn’t take long for me to realize how dedicated you were — it speaks for itself 🤗🤗
I hope that you were successful in restoring the links 👍😂😂.
I tried leaving a comment here recently, but your home page looked changed up drastically, and every time I tried sending a comment, it would give me an error lol.
Omg, Killa! It has really been challenging lately. I changed my theme and everything went bonkers. I have been living a nightmare! Like seriously. I am barely sleeping trying to get things the way I need them to be. I am going to Medellin, Colombia tomorrow to do some soul searching, child-free. I don’t think I have ever needed a break as badly as I do now. I can’t say that I’m not looking forward to it. I need some ME time. I am really hoping I don’t have to hang up this dream. I gave myself 1 year in February and time is flying by and all of the technical issues are sooooo time consuming and I have to hire people to take care of alot of stuff too. That’s not good when you aren’t bringing in any income. I guess time will tell. I just got into the Amazon Influemcer program so now U will try to promote my links. I am going to have to pivot regarding my niche but I can still help whoever needs help. I have 7 clients and not one can afford to pay, actually 5 now. Somethings gotta give. Lol. I hope you are well, Killa. Did you see that we are talking peace treaties with Extraterrestrials in congress? Yup. We have been horribly and irrevocably lied to and it’s about to be cataclysmic and there will be no going back. It’s exciting and it’s scary. Nothing is what we think it is. Look up Steven Greer on YouTube. His work has changed the direction of our future. Let me know what you think. Be well, friend. Metta.
Wow, the way you break down the topics is next to none Samantha ✌️😄😄. I would love for the opportunity to read and comment on your topics alot more but what matters to me most is how you are doing and your wellbeing, and I just wanted to say hello to you and express my admiration for you and the remarkable work that you are doing 💙🤗😍.
I wanted to comment on your latest one but it was asking for my subscription haha. Is it one of the paid types?
Hello Killa! How are you?! I am well. I just got back from camping for a week with the kids and I had absolutely zero service and I loved every second of it. Lol. I apologize for the sub thing. I sometimes switch it to paid subscriptions when I publish because I hate that it basically SPAMS all of the people on my email list just to tell them I made a post. Drives me nuts and it’s really the only work around that I have been able to find. I am really into all of the spiritual things you know and it’s funny because I was watching this three days of darkness video on YouTube last week and it made me think of your comics. Maybe you know more than all of us put together about what’s about to go down? Down to the wording. Very strange things happening in the world right now. Lol. I am glad someone likes my posts. I was recently thinking about how poor my writing skills have become because I am so forced to focus on things like marketing and promo. I used to be a very strong voice and writer and I can’t believe the quality I have had to sacrifice. I try though and I guess thats what matters to some. I have been really busy. I am now a Sober Curator for The Sober Curator. I was featured on MSN News and in the Vermont Recovery Newsletter. I am now volunteering for the MASS. Overdose Prevention Hotline, and I will be in The Seven Days Newspaper this week. Nobody wants to hear a success story. Its very disheartening. I have been really struggling within this niche and it’s starting to piss me off. Alright my kids are pulling me in about 15 directions so I will be back. I hope you are well! Light & Love, friend. Metta!
Lovely to see you again Samantha; thanks alot for updating me. I actually visited your site days ago and was unable to comment then, but I loved reading your comment LOL. Yes will not call your Youtube account a channel because of the sound reasons you have expressed 💙💙😄😄. If you don’t acknowledge it as such, I also can’t 👌😂
I agree with your sentiments, while having a youtube channel can gain you more exposure, one size doesn’t fit all and it is not a guarantee 😅. If you don’t really think it’s for you, it’s probably best not to force yourself to do it 💯🤘😆😆.
Your thoughts about not wanting the message getting lost in the translation is a word to the wise. Things get taken out of context very easily out there plus there can be major misunderstanding that happens. As you said, there is a certain type of negativity that’s noticeable on these platforms, from those who need attention, and misfits and psychopaths, and no one is spared from their immaturity and they will bring their negativity to anybody even those trying to do the right things. I get that it’s just not something you have the tolerance for and you have way better things to do with your time than to be dealing with the pettiness that goes on 😅😄. I am happy to hear that your Instagram is doing great and I hope that it remains an effective way for you to get your story out there and connect with people and to help those who may need it 🙏🙏😇.
“I don’t have many adult interactions these days that aren’t professional, and I’m okay with that. LOL.”
Hahahaha 👏😂; could not be said any better and I definitely know where you are coming from
Thank you for your consideration 😘😘;. I am feeling grand — definitely can’t complain lol. I love hearing from you and until next time take care 🌹✌️💕😆
Awwwww, thank you very much for checking in Samantha 💞🥰😆. I was actually wondering if my comment went through or if I had to comment a second time hahaha 🤭. Thank you dearly for your uplifting words, they are very helpful 🤟🤩☺️. I am all heart-eyes (😍😍😍) to hear about the time you and the kids were having and CONGRATULATIONS to your big kid and her graduation 🎉🎊🥳🥳✊😂. I know she’s made her mommy proud as well as her siblings and the whole family 💕🌹☺️😆🙌.
I can feel through your words how much you love your kids and how much of a beautiful relationship you all have, which is extra sweet and I could not be happier for you 🫶😄🌹😘.
I wanted to let you know that I checked out your Youtuber channel a while back and it was very cool 😂. I don’t have a youtube channel so I was unable to interact but I wanted to give you that update for what feels like forever ago haha.
By the way, you can call me Troy if you want 🙌😃😆. And, all the best to you on your next project sweetheart 😆✊💯🤗
Oh Jesus. I wouldn’t call it a channel. I hate being on video and you can tell but everyone keeps telling me that if I want to be a successful blogger that I have to get a YouTube channel and I am just not even cool with that at all. I had a reader tell me I needed an intro video, so people know who I am and it was literally torture for me and I ended up doing it while I was driving because that is the only time my animals aren’t up my butt. Its not even that I care as much what people think about me, its that I don’t want my message to get destroyed in the translation, type of thing. It’s natural for people to formulate opinions and react accordingly but I have seen people torn apart just for trying to do something good, in comments and I find myself thinking “Ouch. Glad that’s not me.” In my recovery I have become sensitive somehow and I don’t have the thick skin that I used to. It’s super hard to put yourself out there as it is, but add a bunch of negativity to the vibe you trying to pass on and it’s just not something I am looking forward to because they do it to everyone, and I do know that, but it isn’t going to make it hurt any less when they do it to me. Does that make sense? Yeah, I don’t have any plans for anything significant on YouTube unless things really start taking a dive. I am mad enough I had to grow on Instagram. Totally not my thing but its very effective and some times you gotta do what’s effective. I hope all is well for you and thank you oh so much for your very kind words. I don’t have many adult interactions these days that aren’t professional, and I’m okay with that. LOL.
YES, Jetpack saves the day 🙌🤣. I am glad that you can finally respond to comments on your site again after so many frustrating issues lol. I wanted to let you know that I was still reading your blog and I was wondering how you were, so I am happy that you saw my comment 💙😆😆
I am doing great today my friend; thanks for asking. Over the weekend I was really sick; I came down with something around Thursday but by the weekend it had worsened about 10-fold lol. I am not completely myself yet but I feel way better 😄🤟💕
I am so sorry you were sick, Killa. I think it has been going around. I had my kids out of school two days this week. My kindergartener is now a big 1st grader so we are celebrating her big kid graduation this week. The time goes by so fast when kids are involved. I feel like I just had her yesterday. So truly bittersweet. My kids are life savers for sure. Little crystal kids. ANyway, I hope you are well and that you are at least feeling a little bit better. Just wanted to check in before starting my next project because I tend to go hard. Lol.
Hello Samantha 👋👋😂
Hello! How are you?! How have you been? Now that I am using Jetpack I can respond. I just figured it out this am.
Your truly amazing as a mom friend and all around human being. You give me hope when I can not find any. I know your going big places and I’m running behind you. I love you!
Awwwwwwww…. Snicker doodle! You are the first person from town to even come to my site so I will never forget that. You know I won’t. I freaking love you, Wendy! Fr. Thanks for your support being that not one person in my family or my ‘friends’ have been around. I have just accepted that this is my solo rodeo and 20+ hours a day in a windowless office/cell now is going to make it easier later. You know I gotchu, girlllllll!
Hey, I responded to your lovely update ✌️😆
https://aktionkilla.wordpress.com/2022/12/02/kataklyzm-comic-once-in-a-zillion-year-event-just-for-the-fun-of-it-sequence-310-stage-333/comment-page-1/#comment-29631
Hi, how are you Samantha? 😆😆🙌✌️
I think I have learned so much about certain drugs and the long-term effects of addiction from your topics than through all of the years that I have been alive combined 👍👍😄
I also responded to your latest reply to me on the “Rompun Laced Heroin: 1 Deadly Combination” topic weeks ago but I don’t know if you’ve seen it lol
I don’t know what is wrong with my site now but it hasn’t been letting me comment. It’s really pissing my off. Lol. I have approved this comment like 4 times. Lets see if it works this time.
Happy Belated Mother’s Day to you Samantha. I hope you enjoyed it 💕💕😄
LOL, I am sorry to hear about the troubles you are having with the site; I can sense your frustration. I have a question, are you using WordPress.org?
It’s great hearing from you again 🤟😆🤗💯
Hey I am back to respond to your lovely comment Samantha. I wish you a lovely weekend and I hope that you and your loved ones are doing well.
LOL good job on the SEO audit evaluation, that is so good to hear and you are welcome Samantha. I definitely can’t stay silent about this stuff especially seeing how important it is to you. I am glad that you respect my opinion, I have always felt that, but I am happy that you said it because it’s very reassuring and I get where you are coming from. Addition is very much comparable to a mental health disorder where the person is drawn to a particular thing and gets alot of psychological pleasure from it to where even though there are issues involved, they become psychologically numb to them and would do anything just to get the temporary satisfaction from a substance, which causes alot of long term debilitation and destroys people as you have noted and experienced first hand much to the ache of my heart.
I also sense your concern over the transactional pieces, things like the mortgage, the price of the vitawater indicating greed and the increasing cost to living etc. Hahaha thank you for the compliments over my intelligence; I really do appreciate that especially as I also think that you are beautifully intelligent and witty lol. Marketing is something that I have never done but I think the best thing to do for people who are recovering from addiction etc, is to encourage and inspire them to avoid harmful practices because you really don’t want them to start to get addicted to something else and to make them absolutely believe that they need to depend on some other form of product or substance even if the item is considered healthy. I can easily recommend ideas and tips for people to just want to get healthy in general but marketing is a whole other ball game, though I think that you are on the right track with the water lol. Practically anything that does not encourage them to harm themselves, is a huge plus considering the kind of trauma and abuse that many of them have experienced. One thing that might work if us to look up eth kids of drugs and what effects and side-effects they have and what harm they cuse to people health-wise (dehydration, poisoning certain chemical imbalances etc) and see what products are out there on the market that would help them to replenish vitamins and essential nutrients based on the kind of drugs that you know are out there, but you also don’t want to get too much into the area of playing the role of a doctor. Generally, for most people trying to recover, just keeping off the drugs should make a significant difference in their improvement health-wise, but if they should need extra help in that area, then maybe it’s best that they see a doctor. But things like water, or fruit-based stuff, things that have fiber etc should be great recommendations.
Hahaha Samantha you are so funny and cute. Thanks for the laugh and I will remember your advice.
P.S: I am sorry that I haven’t really touched on some of the newest and most recent topics that you have posted as yet 😅
“Hi Killa! Sorry, it took me a bit to get back to you”
Lol that’s no problem Samantha 😆🤗💕. Good to see you; I really liked reading what you had to say as always and I hope that you have a good day today. You have also posted new topics which is so cool — I definitely need to catch up! 💯😆😆
I am sorry to hear about the loss of your friends and those who are dear to your heart my friend 🙏😢😇.
These are some really awful drug cocktails that are out there. Heroine by itself is already bad enough, but to then have it mixed with tranquilizer substances and Xylazine, and who knows what else, is literally a recipe for death and untold suffering; cutting lives short and breaking families apart.
I really admire how you raise these concerns, break down and educate people on these matters in the way that you do which makes them so understandable and easy to grasp 💯💙💙.
Killa, I am telling you that you would not even believe the people that I have lost in this lifetime. I grew up in a small Vermont jail, so I came up with all of the same girls doing the same “life on the Installment plan” revolving door lifestyle, and it really is just like a war. They would get out of jail… Again, we would have no idea who would make it back. It was a rough way to come up. Then add in the abuse we went through in that hell-hole jail. Check this out https://www.sevendaysvt.com/vermont/guarded-secrets-claims-of-sexual-misconduct-drug-use-plague-vermonts-womens-prison/Content?oid=29082891 Google ‘7 days Chittenden RCF,” and you will have some good reading and a bigger picture of how I came up. This is only one of many articles like this. Those men had complete control. NOTHING we could do. They would throw me in the hole by myself for months and months, never knowing when I would be released. Throw in the perversions and sickness of those who had power over us, and it’s sickening. One of the COs was indicted and was facing agg. Sex ass. When he got out on bail ALL three of the girls that were testifying against him overdosed and died within months. He never went back, not even for a day. I couldn’t make this up. I truly feel that I have been through a war. That war has stomped on me, broken me, maimed me, and destroyed everything and everyone I care about. Addiction knows no bias. Addiction will ravage, destroy, de-story, incapacitate, uninitiate, leverage, stomp, burn, scar, wound, and smile while waiting for you to give it more. It is scarier than ANY disease, past, present, or future. How a disease could take SO…. much from a person still escapes me. I can’t allow others to suffer as I suffered. I just can’t. I have to raise awareness. Did you see the page I added for my friends and people that readers have lost? It’s only my friends right now, and I have so so many more to get on there, but it will get done slowly but surely. I haven’t had time to do ANYTHING lately. I am barely sleeping. My site was really messed up because of my plugins and WPs last update. I didn’t even know that it looked different, honestly. Who is looking around here? Lol.
True I know that I would not even begin to understand the magnitude of your losses 😭💓💓.
You have been through so many ups and downs, severe trauma, hurt and pain and sorrow. I think you have described it best as a war, and you were basically fighting for your life, every day from so young. Even now there are so many challenges to overcome; it’s very very heavy stuff with loads of destruction and despair, uncertainty and cries for help. You were tortured and brutalized so much by many people that you encountered, and the effects of those drugs, and scared and wounded mentally and physically, but yet you somehow make it to where you are today because it still wasn’t enough to may your heart fail 💔💙😥🤗.
I think it shows the kind of heart you have inside of you, that even after all of that bad stuff that was going on, you wanted to use the lessons from your own life and what you had to deal with, to help other people and potential victims of this life of addiction, and abuse, to either avoid or be empowered to wake up out of it and loosen themselves from its deadly grasp.
I agree that addiction is a very bad thing. While addiction is not really a disease, it’s still very dangerous behavior, and the more it is allowed, is the more it ruins if or until the individual had enough and backs away from the problem that they are addicted to.
Thanks for recommending the articles, I must check them out to get to know more about our background and because your story is very important.
“facing agg. Sex ass.”
🤣🤣🤭 “short & sweet” at its finest
“One of the COs was indicted and was facing agg. Sex ass. When he got out on bail ALL three of the girls that were testifying against him overdosed and died within months.”
Whoa, that is too sad, the addiction took control of them to the point where, when they had the opportunity to defend themselves and also be the voice for so many others, they still couldn’t stay off of the drugs and every single one of them ended up overdosing. It is truly heartbreaking, especially knowing that it leads to the broader issue of situations like this continuing to persist as the perpetrators go unchallenged.
Is the added page that you are mentioning titled “THE FALLEN MEMORIAL”?. I didn’t notice it earlier but after reading your comment I went searching for it and the “Fallen Memorial” page seemed like it was page lol. That is such a compassionate thing to do Samantha; their legacies and memories are certainly not in vain because of your voice for them and your selfless efforts 🙏🙏😇. There are so many people on there already that don’t even look like they fit the stereotype or druggies and addicts but to know that there is way more that you can put on that page, it’s a really dramatic reminder of the awful reality.
I know exactly what you are saying; working so many long hours and being so pre-occupied, certainly affects your ability to do much of anything with your site’s issues at this time, but it’s great to see that the little you have done with it, actually has paid off to make your site run a little faster and also remedy some other issues, so congrats ✌️😂. The visual changes to the site are mainly noticeable whenever I enter a topic like this one but your homepage generally still looks the same and looks so cool haha. I hope that you are able to get some rest at some point, because your health is what helps keep you going aswell 🤗🤗☺️
“Who is looking around here? Lol.”
Hahaha, it looks like I am your only guest for now 🤣😁
P.S: I sent this reply a few days ago, but I am not sure if it was successfully submitted so I am resending it so you will know that I have read it, and also get a chance to see what I think lol
Damn, Killa! You got a way with words. Your pretty deep! I just decided when I was very young that I wasn’t going to be a victim again at any point. No matter what. My dad always told me when I called him collect from jail that there was a light at the end of the tunnel, and he was right. I choose positivity. I choose to leave the world better than it was when I found it. I have experienced true magic and truly unexplainable things in the last few years. I went into this knowing that it would take time and a lot of patience. I am good. I am huge on gratitude. I have two alarms in my phone to remind me to take a few moments a few times a day and be grateful for all that I am and all that I have because nobody including myself thought that I would live this long.
We have differing opinions about addiction being a disease because it is. I get how you could come to the conclusion that it’s not, but I am here to tell you that if you lived it you would not be at the same conclusion. Never for a second did I choose to hurt those I love repeatedly and lose everything I worked for over and over. Selling drugs that I knew would get people addicted. I have ALOT of guilt & shame that I doubt will ever dissipate. Those fallen women- they had kids that they adored and that adored them. They didn’t choose to be the way they were.
I will tell you how it happens. Something happens that we had no control over. Usually something that someone else did to us. When they stole away our power to choose they stole away our power to properly heal and with that a seed of self-loathing was planted. That seed grew through elementary and high school and made us feel different than all the kids around us who were actually able to be kids because they weren’t carrying the weight of the world on their small shoulders. We spent our childhoods in a constant state of fight or flight. You can’t imagine how that feels for a child when there is nowhere to flee. No safe place. By the time drugs are introduced to our lives we had been waiting. We were waiting for a magic fairytale that would take it all away. Drugs did that, albeit temporarily, it was enough. I spent my life hating myself more than anyone else ever could, and for something that I had absolutely no control over. It has been much more difficult for me creating The Fallen than I had initially thought it would be because I hadn’t processed so many of their deaths. It’s like they are all passing at once again. Its hard but I gotta admit that it feels so good to feel these HEAL-thy emotions. Well, now you got me all going deep. Its alright though. I am glad to have someone challenge me on this because this is a debate I will have until my last breath. I respect your point of view and I know that if you had seen what I have seen that view point would be much different. Its hard because addiction affects so so many and it seems so so selfish. Just stop people would say. I wish it were that simple, friend. I really do. Damn, this would have been a great topic for the forum. Lol. Its all good though. How are things going with your site? I haven’t been over in awhile. I will have to visit soon
Samantha 🙌🙌😂. Hello to you my friend, I am happy to hear from you 💙🥰. I visited here a number of times but I didn’t see anything so I was away for a while but something told me to check your sight today and I am now catching up.
Things are great with my site 😂😂😃. Thanks for asking and you can visit any time you want. I will reply to other points you made in your message soon aswell; this is just a hello comment LOL
I am incredibly humbled by your complimentary remarks my friend 🙌🙌😄☺️💙. I really feel what you are saying and it does have an impact on me and the caring affection I have for you. You are definitely reaching me on a sensitive level. I think that ultimately, you having enough and realizing that no one should experience what you had been putting up with, and seeing so many people that you loved being ruined by that life, was definitely the inspiration that you needed. It’s interesting hearing about what your dad told you about the light at the end of the tunnel and how supportive he was because in some situations like these, alot of people have no one to look up to or to talk to about these very serious things, or to be with them through these awful situations, and they keep slipping back into the same cycle and it just keeps getting worse and worse, so I am very happy for you that you chose positivity. It touched my heart when you said that there was a time when you as well as other people who knew you, didn’t believe that you would be alive for much longer but now you are able to look at your life and see a drastic change and reality compared to where you were and come from, and how you are doing now which is one of the most beautiful things I have ever heard, to use your words, the experience has been magic!.
The reason why I don’t see addiction as a real disease is because addiction is mostly to do with self-control than it is an actual “genetic disorder”. To put it into context so that you can see where I am coming from; some people just like certain things and they will always go out of their way to have what it is that they want, and we have the tendency to want to do certain things excessively even at the cost of our own health and well-being. To explain even further, let me give you the scenario of someone loving to go fast. They may be addicted to excessively driving their car fast, but there is a possibility that they can crash and end up in a really bad life-changing situation. It’s not a disease, it’s just that fast driving is something they like to do despite how dangerous it is, but they love the feeling of it and the pleasure that they get out of doing it, so they keep doing it despite the fact that it is dangerous and they can die from it. Someone can become addicted to the excessive use of alcohol because they really like alcohol and although alcohol is very bad for their health and can have serious consequences, they still like the joy and the pleasure and the feeling of drinking alcohol so much that despite the dangers, they keep using it. It’s the same thing with drugs, it all comes down to the fact that people like different things but sometimes the things that they really like or love to do, have bad negative effects, and if they keep doing these things, they will become negatively affected but in different ways according to what it is or the types of things they like doing.
A real disease is not really like that, since, they are often genetic mutations that occur randomly within the body that leads to disorders and dysfunction within someone that they have absolutely no control over concerning whether or not, they have it or not, and these conditions are not fun at all. In most cases, unlike addiction, many diseases are not something that a person can stop doing and then the issue will go way. Alot of true “natural” diseases (or “medical” diseases) have no cure and the individuals have to live with the issue throughout their whole life whether they like it or not. That is what I think about when I hear about diseases, not so much addiction which is mainly just the repetitive action of doing something excessively that is consequential. But I think you can say that addiction is a disease in the same way that you would consider certain types of behaviors “toxic” or refer to something figuratively as a “cancer” etc etc lol. So in that sense, I can see why addiction is considered a disease. But when I say that it wasn’t really a disease, it still doesn’t minimize or trivialize the life of pain and trauma that you were in. As you put it, selling drugs can get people addicted to them and rip families apart and cause people to die who may have kids and then the kids are left without their mothers or father (even both) and create major hardships which is very sad. It was not their intent but it unfortunately happened.
When you talked about the reality that some people are often manipulated or introduced to very terrible habits and lifestyles by others without knowing any better and are in a circumstance where they are put at a severe disadvantage without truly knowing what it is that they are getting into that may change their lives forever at such young vulnerable ages, could not have been said any better Samantha. That is so true — especially when you talked about how it made you, and many others that were in your situation, feel when you were around others who just didn’t know or could understand what terrible thing you had been subjected to and how uncomfortable it was for you to have to be “normal” on the outside but actually felt very wrecked, outcasted and victimized and didn’t feel as if you were valued and as if you were a letdown and a failure compared to everyone else.
I see where you are coming from when you said it was alot more difficult creating the Fallen Angles page than you originally thought because you truly had not processed it. It’s like being on adrenaline where everything is just happening so fast, and then when it wears off, the true extent of the pain, scars and injuries set in. And I really love how you referred to the emotions and feelings as “Heal-thy” LOL
A topic like this sure would make a great topic for the forum haha. I don’t think I actually saw the forum yet, but if you made it already, that’s SUPER! 👏🤟😂😄
Hi Killa! Sorry, it took me a bit to get back to you. I finally got my site’s SEO audit to a 97, so I am like ecstatic. Thanks for saying all of that. I respect your opinion. I do. I never compare addiction to terminal diseases. When I say it’s a disease, I am meaning a mental health disorder for sure. Sometimes mental health disorders can debilitate and destroy, and addiction fits the bill for that. It just does. I am kinda stressing because I have to come up with some transactional pieces with affiliates, and aside from rehabs, what can I market in addiction? It’s been discouraging, to say the least. The mortgage is due, and have you been to the grocery store lately? OMgoodness. A Vitawater is $2.49! What is going on here? Just when you think people couldn’t possibly be more greedy. Man. Anyway, I am thinking, with your very high level of obvious intelligence, that maybe you may have some ideas on what types of things I can market to people in recovery. I know firsthand that we love to shop, but this is the hard part of this niche. Very stressful. I am super excited that the Vermont Winter has come and gone, and praying I won’t have to spend next winter in the cold. Ugh. I gotta go put my kiddos to bed but I will get back soon enough. DOnt ever stay away from the computer in the windowless office for long. Lol. How could I?
I notice your blog has a new look✌️😆
I don’t know if Good Friday is a day that you commemorate but incase you do, I wish you a happy Good Friday Smantha 💞😆✌️
Lol. Thank you so very much, Killa. If I am going to remain 150% transparent, I have to admit I immediately thought you were talking about Black Friday, which is a ways off. No, it’s not something I currently recognize, but I say the same to you. I am spiritual, not religious. Many people think that spirituality has everything to do with religion, and it’s actually the opposite. I just downloaded a forum plugin, and I wonder if I have to configure it. Hmmm…. I want to start building this community. I have been going through it with this site, and ofc dontchu know I hire Fiverr “professionals.” The first one totally did nothing and wasted another week to then hire ANOTHER Fiverr professional to waste my time yet again and hoping for different results. I deleted a ton of plugins, and that helped, but WP swears that we can have as many as we need without it affecting our sites. No comment. Lol.
I don’t know why it’s posting a pic of my web pro. Lmao! Pay no mind to that, Killa.
LMAO, roger that!. I also notice that you are posting under the name “Ruhul Amin” 😂.
LOL that is pretty funny 🤣. Good Friday is definitely not Black Friday 🤣🤣. Thank you for wishing me the same as it relates to Good Friday my friend 👍👍😆.
It’s great that you consider yourself spiritual; you are so correct, spirituality isn’t a religious thing although most religions do believe in a ton of spiritual stuff. Yes I understand that you pay Fiverr “professionals” (hahaha) and I think that’s just because you don’t really know anyone that can help you otherwise. I think if you knew someone like me who is more than familiar with the basics of WordPress, you would have been able to save alot of time and money because you’d be surprised at how you can have a fantastic site that runs really well by just doing some really basic things lol
Speaking of which, did you notice my other message that I sent in response to your previous comment?. I had actually responded to your other message with a much bigger post, but I don’t see it. But the other comment that I posted in April is submitted which makes me think that you didn’t see the other one lol. But I could repost it — I think it didn’t post because it contained a link to my forum and was thrown away by the anti-spam feature. So I will send you the exact same message except without the link and see if it posts 👍😄. I hope it does because you raised alot of points about things that I brought up in that post aswell to the point where, at times, it even seemed like your points were a direct response to it 🤭🤭😂.
Greetings to you Samantha✌️😆. I hope that you are good today 💙
I apologize for many of the typos and grammatical errors that I am now noticing in my previous comment 🤣😮
I can’t believe that you just apologized for grammatical errors! Don’t do that, ever. Lol. My mind goes so so so much faster than my fingers that my fingers never catch up. Lol. That stuff doesn’t bother me in the least because mine is the same. My friends and clients make fun of me because I use punctuation, and I think, “what kind of world do you get ish for being correct? That which is earth, right? I worked twenty hours yesterday trying to fix my site, and I still have like 4 pages of ahrefs SEO audit to fix. It’s so time-consuming. I am about to visit Fiver, and I hate doing that. I will be working another 20 hours by early morning night as well. I am weird though I kinda like the challenge of it all at some points but at others… I have Bluehost, and I have had nothing but problems. My site goes offline every day multiple times, and I just purchased 1 year of Cloudflare hoping to speed up my site and it hasn’t worked, so I paid for 1 year of AIOSEO and I am configuring that now. Its been a long week. TGIF, Killa. Fr. Thank you for your kind words and your help. I truly appreciate you.
Awwwww no problem Samantha I enjoy helping wherever it’s welcomed and I am happy that you embraced my efforts haha 💙😆🥰. It’s cool that you’re able to see past the grammatical errors, they actually caught me off-guard so it felt embarrassing to look back and realize just how much slipped my inspection LOL
Yes, I noticed that your site had been going off-line alot when I first visited. I have a self-hosted site: z-killa-kq(.)epizy(.)com — I have not used it for a long time 🤣🤣🤣) and the same thing was happening to me too. Then I noticed that it was due to the server on the “hosting site which would “crash” or “timeout” when a CPU or so became overloaded because things were happening on my website that placed alot of demands on the low-tier server that my website is hosted on, but that was during the time that I was actually setting up the site, and since then, I have not had any issues.
Generally, Switching to an adequate hosting plan can help alot but also the more things you have running on the site could affect its performance. One thing you could do before going to Fiver is to try starting with a fresh slate by disabling some of the features and plugins, then turning them on individually to monitor their performance one-by-one to see which ones are actually causing the most issues on the site.
I think the number one basic thing that will make your site run smoother and faster is proper hosting, so make sure you have that out of the way first. Then make sure that some of the things you are adding to the site, are things that you actually need because the more things you add to your site is the slower it will get depending on the kind of hosting plan that you have. So reevaluate your site’s configuration, make sure you have a decent plan, the plan doesn’t need to be anything too expensive just be sure that the hosting site you’re using is a good one, and from what I understand Bluehost is actually pretty good. So I think what may be affecting your site is certain things that are added to it that may be bogging it down or causing it be “bloated”, so try disabling some of the plugins or added features and enable them individually and monitor the performance of your site to pinpoint the problematic ones via a process of elimination. That should be a pretty basic and inexpensive approach that you can take for now.
For security, just make sure that you have a really good/strong password and try not to click on funny links in emails or download suspicious files and things like that. Monitor your devices and try not to let anyone use them without your permission and absolute supervision. Usually, you should be able to avoid most security issues by using these seemingly basic but actually quite effective standard procedures because you are not really apart of a large organization or business so there is no need for you to have expensive and overly sophisticated security implementations, so beware of people trying to convince you otherwise especially if they are looking to get money. If you are actually making money directly through your site, just make sure that no one can gain access to your device, and always make sure that no one knows your password.
Yes I know it’s been a long week and the 20-hour work schedule sounds grueling 😅😅. I am happy to see you again my friend 🤗☺️💞, we will catch up soon and you can call me Troy if you want haha.
P.S: This is the original meesage I sent that didn’t go through because I had included a link to my website. But I edited the message and just removed the link. It is otherwise the same exact message. Cheers to you Samantha — we’ll catch up soon 😘😘
I really love your compliments 😆🤭💯💯, thank you so much ☺️💙💙. Yes my site has a ton of images and posts. At first I wanted to use WordPress.com as my own “self hosted” site and server with my own domain etc, but I didn’t realize that I would actually need “WordPress.org” for that which is a whole other ball game haha. I wanted to primarily post gaming videos and whatnot, but my computer was tooooo weak to even record and capture the kind of content that I wanted LOL. So over time alot of the other things that i’m also into like writing and expressing myself through creativity started to takeover and feature more prominently on the site and things just gradually built up from there hahaha.
Your content is really good to me too. I was actually blown away by how insightful and engaging your posts are, so it means alot to me to hear what you have to say. I believe that eventually you will grow alot too, it’s just that you put out way more content in a shorter space of time than the average blogger so it might seem slow at first but that’s only because of the pace at which you are able to produce content and the admirable depth of quality, time and effort that you put into it. So it’s great to hear that you’re not giving up.
My heart ached when you said that you have lost too many people to give up — that is a drive like no other. I encourage you to keep doing what you do because it’s going to take a while and patience, but you will see the fruits of your labor Samantha. The only thig is that I tend to have a little trouble accessing your site unless I type I go to the exact URL, so I don’t know if it may be actually that that’s affecting your site (accessibility), since usually people can see your posts on their feed and things like that but if they click on it and it doesn’t bring them to your site things like that could actually be what’s affecting the traffic on your end, so accessibility and ways that people may or may not be able to interact with you and your content could be an issue that affects the growth -rate of your site/blog.
Hahaha it would be cool to have a podcast but I don’t currently have one. If I had one, you’d definitely be my first guest 😂😂💙
PS: I tried sending my comment multiple times, but the system kept taking long to submit the post and then it would redirect to an error page 😅
Killa! Thank you so much for making me aware. I just did an audit, and whoa! Not good. What do you use for image compression because you have a lot of photos? I am trying to find a plug-in that will aid me in fixing the long list of 404s, redirects, etc., my site has. I purchased all the top plugins for site security and everything else, but now I got nothing left. I have about a year to figure out the monetizing part of this. Lol. Maybe I will hire another person from Fiver to waste weeks of my time and not get the job done. Lol. I actually sprung for the Blog Growth Engine course by Adam Enfroy, and I can’t tell you how happy I am with that course. I wish I would have taken it ALOT sooner because I spent a lot of time and money on courses that I could have taught myself. I am definitely not in this for the money, but I have to support my kids. I see no reason why I can’t help people and make money. My motives are completely pure, as I mentioned, so that has to count for something, right? You’re absolutely right about patience. I am a firm believer in the compound effect. All of the little things I do now will make for big results over time. Do you have Oculus Quest 2 yet? If you don’t, you have got to try it out. I can’t tell you the beauty I experience on that headset daily. One of the apps allows you to go anywhere you want in the world and check it out like you’re walking around but in VR. It’s indescribable. You can swim with manatees and watch sunsets in Australia. These days people tend to forget all of the beauty in the world and immerse themselves in their social media feeds. I’m choosing to expand my mind and my awareness by finding beauty in not only day-to-day things but things I could probably never begin to experience if it weren’t for VR. I wasted much of my life in a small cement room with a locked door that I didn’t have the key to. Grew up poor and never saw or experienced anything beyond my backyard. It’s something. Huge advocate, but I do recognize that it is a video game, so… moderation is key. Lol. I hit it after the kiddos go to bed when my site is not dying before my eyes. Lol. Ninety-hour weeks is killing me but that compound interest. I have to figure out what to do about my site. Any idea what might be keeping me out of the feed? That one I have no idea on. I really appreciate you letting me know all of that. Your awesome, and I appreciate you taking the time. Any insight or personal experiences would be great. I’m on my own here. Lol. Light and love.
So many wonderful thoughts in one comment 🤩🤩🙌.
Alot of my image compression is done through Photoshop since I use it to create alot of my photos and imagery, and what I realized is that the JPG version of images usually come out much smaller in file size than PNG images, so it would be beneficial if you can compress your images in that format where ever possible 👍😆😆. The thing with the PNG format is that it preserves the transparency of an image, so if you have an image with transparency in it, the only way you can keep the transparency in the image is by saving it as PNG but that results in a much bigger file size when compared to JPG lol.
YES avoid Fiver or any other kind of arrangement that would put you in that kind of situation like the plague 🤣. It would be terrible for you to pay anyone or any company so much money only for them to act like they are busy but do absolutely nothing but waste your time and drain your money; there are just too many things you can try in the meantime haha.
It is really good that you are investing in site security 👍👏😄😄. Also be very careful to make sure that you don’t let anyone get access to your actual device or devices that you are using to run your site and be able to get access to it that way; not even people in your family, or friends, unless you are really really sure that they know what they are doing and won’t leave your device laying around, or install things on it, or potentially leave it vulnerable to be accessed by a third-party through possible mishandling of it because one thing that happens on social media alot is that people say or think that they got “hacked” but they are not actually being hacked, it sometimes people around them that are just able to go on to their device and mess with whatever they have on it 😅😅. So it would be very unfortunate if you invest in alot of security on the website itself but almost anyone who is near your device can sneak onto your it or go into it and do whatever they want. But apart from that, general security is an automatic must-have if you are using it for business lol. And I am happy to hear about your pleasure concerning the Blog Growth Engine course by Adam Enfroy because courses do take alot of time and money and it’s a huge chunk of your life that you dedicate that you can’t just get back, so I am happy that atleast the Blog Growth Engine course was beneficial to you out of the many that you took about things that you probably could have learned on your own.
I understand what you’re saying about not being in this just for money or for your own gain and that you have people depending on you which is why it’s helpful if you can still earn from your plantform, and that’s actually a very positive way of looking at the situation. I am definitely not here to judge or tell you how to live your life, if anything, I am glad that I met you and seeing your determination and how you refuse to give up despite all you’ve been through, is extremely inspiring 💯🙏🤗.
Yeah, your pure motives and patience do count, they are a cherished blessing in this life my friend and it’s so good that it’s part of who you are Samantha 🥰🥰.
Hahaha I have not touched a V.R device at all in my life as yet but I love the fact that you also have an interest in gaming lol. Most of the games I play don’t require V.R or have it implemented. I play games like Need For Speed, Street Fighter, Sonic, Metal Slug and the list is endless, but I definitely have to check out Oculus Quest 2 because you make it sound exciting 😆🕹🖲🖥
“I hit it after the kiddos go to bed when my site is not dying before my eyes”
🤣😂😂 YUP that’s how it’s done my friend — there must be NO INTERRUPTIONS while gaming!.
WOW 90-HOUR days is a very stringent schedule that takes tremendous discipline, and I think that speaks to teh kind of heart you have. It’s something that’s not just about you, you have kids to look after and you also love helping others, and that is a huge part of this process that keeps you going.
Sure Samantha, I will be happy to give you thoughts about what could be causing the issues with your feed and other problems. What could possibly be keeping you out of your feed might be a bug or a glitch caused by a plugin or a configuration. But I don’t think you need to do much with your site overall; the only thing I think that you should look into is seeing if you can allow some of the basic features of WordPress to help in driving more traffic to your site by allowing your site to be more accessible to the huge community that WordPress.com has (that’s if you are actually using a WordPress.com site), and then gradually people will be able to keep up with your activities and follow your blog alot better and interact with you better 👍😄. Whenever you comment on a blog post or read and like them, these little things also help draw attention to your site because I noticed your blog when you liked my posts haha. You can also visit the WordPress support forum at https://wordpress.com/forums/ to get help and advice about concerns and issues you have about your site and problems that you have noticed or ways that you can improve and enhance if that’s what you would like to do aswell. I tried to respond to as many of your lovely points as possible but please if you want to know anything ask me and I hope that my feedback helps 💕💕☺️🌹.
Hahaha you are very welcome🙌😆😃.
Sorry for the late response 😄😄. It looks like I won’t get notifications from your page if you reply. I will have to visit it manually but it’s lovely seeing you Samantha and have a great weekend✌️🤩
Why, thank you, Killa! That is so nice! I checked out your website. Sooo.. cool, like fr. What’s the addy again?
😂 you are super welcome; anytime my friend 🙌🙌.
Wow, thank you Samantha ☺️🥰🌹. I’m happy you liked what you saw; I realized that you visited and I am so grateful for that🤟💞😆
By addy you mean by site’s address?; it is this: https://aktionkilla.wordpress.com/
Your site is wayyyy more evolved than mine. I couldn’t help but wonder how long it must have taken you to do it all. That is an insane amount of amazing content very well done. I had NO idea what went into blogging. I just want to help people, and the Universe kept pulling me this way, but man….. I have so much reverence and respect for bloggers like you because I have had to teach myself SEO, keywords, marketing, etc. and it has been a long and tedious journey with not much for results thus far. Luckily for the world, giving up is not an option. I have lost too many people I have loved to ever give up. Man, the work, though. I have been working 90-hour weeks. I can’t imagine how many hours you have put into your blog, and you have a podcast, correct?
Highly intriguing observation 👌👌. Thanks for sharing your tips💙✌️😄
Thanks, Killa!😁
Just reread both parts, and after talking to you I can almost hear your voice as I read. you are a really great writer and your story is about the most inspirational I have ever heard. I’m gonna do it. my sobriety starts in the morning. like u said I got this. Thanks sam
Yes! You absolutely do! I believe in you!
I love this so much! thank you for putting yourself out there. this has really given me hope. I love that you say ‘don’t wait until tomorrow to be the person you could be today’ this really hits home with me. Thank you so much for being there for me last weekend. I will never forget what you did for me. I just feel so alone since my mom died. I don’t care what u say I’m going to pay you for meeting with me. you went above and beyond. Thanks Sam.
U, You can do anything you want in life at this point. You decide. What I wouldn’t give… You are young, and you have ambition which is a little rare these days. Regardless, as I have told you multiple times, YOU are the COCREATOR of your life. You write your own story. I believe in you and if you need me, you know how to reach me. Head up, Chicky. Reach for the stars!
I am so grateful for you and your willingness to be open and share your story here! Tweetable quote: “Spirituality is wholeness.”
Thank you so much for that, girl! I kinda needed to hear that, I guess. I’m just trying to be as authentic as I can so that I can use my story to help people. I would love to chat soon.
I would love to chat too!
I just purchased your book on Amazon. I can’t wait to read it!
Dear heart you have really been through it!! I feel your honesty and humility through every word!
My cousin Josh used and had also been incarcerated for years—in and out. Then last July after being clean and getting his shit together, married and all, he was shot and killed.
Life really has a way of twisting us into knots! But I am thankful you are still with us on the planet! I am rooting for you!!
I also think you are an excellent writer. Keep it up.
Many blessings!
Thank you so much, Sheila! you don’t know what this means to me. I am very sorry to hear about your cousin. It’s sad when things happen like that. They are ever more tragic, if that makes any sense. It took me a really long time to realize that I had to go through what I went through to be me. Here. Today. The worst part was all the time I spent in segregation for months at a time, with only myself. Imagine what I could have done for my life had I begun meditating then. Lol. Thanks for taking the time. I appreciate you. Light & LOVE, FRIEND.
I love the variety of information you offer, Sam. Thank you. Unlike a lot ofbloggers I can tell that you really do care about people and want to help them. It’s a tough job.
I really do. Thank you.
Sam, can you recommend any new meditations for beginners?
Below are three that I found for beginners WITH binaural beats, which I find to be an integral part of my meditation practice. Let me know how you do.
Self-connection Meditation 1 hr. https://youtu.be/E6F91X1RRmE
Binaural beats for beginners 10 min https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vD8sofpB5I0
Binaural Healing for beginners 7 min https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ETQHHQpAdY4
Wow! I can’t stop reading ur posts! This one is truly inspiring for me. I struggled with anorexia for many years and every day still has struggle. I need something like this! If it can do thos for you then I can too. Where do I get an Occulis 2? Ho much? Probably really expensive right?
I am so sorry to hear that. This is an issue that a lot of the women I was incarcerated with struggled with. Absolutely heart-breaking for such amazing and beautiful women to have such self-images. (1 moment pause in reverence of those struggling).
If I were someone looking for an Occ Quest 2 I would check out Offer Up or Mercari. I purchase a lot of my electronics of offer up for unbeatable prices. My advice would be to start throwing out offers. Start low. Take ur time and see what happens. I have found them for under $200 on Offer Up when I was helping a client find one. Good luck!
I love how you mix in the facts and statistics with ur two cents. It’s very… Well… Unique!
I love this! It’s so true and how creative they got. The last thing we need is to be alone and cut off.
I think it’s kinda my job. Lol. I truly appreciate you and thanks for all of your comments. Ur giving me something to do. Thank you.
I also sooo love your title, progressing not perfecting! I don’t believe in Perfection and think the struggle to be perfect stalls and blocks a lot of us!
Sheila, I agree 350%! Other people in our lives instill perfection as a possibility when we are young and it really fu*ks us up! Perfection in anything does not exist and does not need to, except maybe nature. Nature is perfection. I love my plants. Green witch here! Lol. Maybe I will tell you someday a bit down the road why I chose the title. You better stick around!
I think I am a green witch too! I sooo align with Merlin, as Terence McKenna presents him. And for sure I will stick around and connect with you on all available channels.
I checked out your blog, and sister, we are so so aligned! Lol. I LOVE LOVE LOVE my succulent gardens. I have 2 raised flower beds in my kitchen. One is a cactus garden, and one is a succulent garden. My plants keep me sane and if you think you are a green witch and u got that green thumb 👍 then so it is. I for sure have that green thumb. I love ur blog btw. You know that there is nowhere to comment after ur posts, and I couldn’t find the follow button. I am going to try from here now, on WordPress. 💜
I’m so glad you persevered on WordPress so I could get your comments!!! Xoxo
OMG we’re sooo aligned!! My mom had the RH neg blood too and birthed me an AB positive, only baby to live more than a day out of her 6 pregnancies! And I just published a book all about the blue, indigo and messages from the Other Side!
Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection.
GET OUT! What is it called? I am reading a book right now called Bloodline of The Gods by Nick Redfern! They have it on Audible, and I highly recommend that you read it, being that you are a descendant of the bloodline. My SO’s mother is RH Negative, so he is as well. You HAVE to check this book out. The author went back in all of the Sumerian texts, and he did the work, and the story is fascinating! I am only on Chapter 9, and it is so so so good. I am listening now. Lol. Another one that you may want to check out is Starborne by Solara. I’m getting a vibe here. Please let me know what you think if you get the chance to check it out. My jaw has already hit the floor a few times. Don’t forget to let me know what your book is called. You can request me on FB or Instagram or whatever your are comfortable with. Thank you.
I will check out those books. Sweet!!!
Oopsie! The bottom was cut off. I am checking out your book now!
Wow! You have a facinating story and I can’t wait for part 2! You are exactly what we need. There aren’t any blogs that share about opioid addiction and ppl wonder why communities don’t believe that people can change! Your story is inspiring, Sam. By looking at your gallery I can tell that you have a good life. Just keep posting and providing us with content. It might be slow going at first but with ur background u can’t lose. Just don’t give up please. You said if you evenhad one person you would keep going? I am that one person. Ur amazing and ur going to help a lot of people! Thank you for this!
When I was actively using, I used to look for a blog with an opioid addict and was never successful. Now it’s been almost 7 years and not much has changed. I search for my competitors, and there isn’t much. This is probably because we aren’t people that anyone can make money from. Sad, but true. Hopefully, with time we are about to change that up here! People need to have something to believe in, I am hoping to help them find their something. You have no idea how much this comment means to me right now. Now, I have enough to keep going. Thank you, U! I can tell you spread a lot of light in this world. Keep shining bright, and keep coming back!
I just joined your community. I am grateful and thankful to you for being strong enough to create this community. People will come. This is the only blog I could find with a recovering heroin addict as a creator and we NEED this! People need to see that there is hope and people need to see that change is possible! Thank you for showing us that it is.